Wednesday, February 20, 2008

am i?

not too happy abt the previous pot
am i such a person,
it's sad. crazy.
maybe i will work on it


*yawn..
would the med let me sleep?
im tired.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

some test i took.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 40%
Stability |||| 20%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 50%
Accommodation |||||||||||||| 56%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||| 56%
Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Religious |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hedonism |||||| 30%
Materialism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 50%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Conflict seeking |||| 16%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 63%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 43%
Wealth |||| 16%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 70%
Change averse |||||||||||||| 56%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||| 16%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||||||| 37%
Histrionic |||||| 30%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Indie |||||||||| 38%
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i so do not like myself what they have analyse
im not a good frind True

Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:

introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, semi intellectual

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head hurts, inside hurts

Im not so good.. not so bad. a little calm. but often feel light headed in the morning at around 1030 to 1130. light headed. and when im well in the day, coping well, dealing with her nonsenses and trying the my best not to let her affect me.. not to let people affect me, i would get a terrible headache by the end of the day. mostly occur in the evening. i would feel like im not in my body, light headed, alternating between tired and trembling, heart racing slightly. hand shaking. and yes, nauseous. this has been happening frequently in the last 2 weeks. is my body trying to tell me something? i try to control my attitude . but it's so tiring to fight all these. im tired. yet everyday i have to motivate myself to get of bed sometimes i wish it will end. wish that i don't have to be accountable to so many people. very sad.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Not good

i'm stressed with work.. the people at work.
i'm tired of fighting.. of how my brain is dead tired at the end of the day.
How the bells starts ringing and I can tell that i'm have an attack again.

No one knows. The pain, the noise and the thoughts.
I have to keep it down and wrapped it up.
It's a secret the world can find. And i would lose my job.

tired.
want to cry.